imagine that
this Sunday I turn 58…I should probably be grateful that I’ve lived this long, but I’m not–yet…It’s ultimately (mostly) MY FAULT that my Life has turned out the way it has…by which I mean NOT the way I hoped it would when I was younger…Regret is pointless, I know that…I try to BE HERE NOW; but that’s always been difficult for me, and tonight is no exception…I’m too sentimental I guess…
like it or not I plan on going to the MVA to discuss that money they say I owe them tomorrow…I can’t EVEN explain why it’s taken so long to deal with this problem–and I’m fairly sure they’re gonna ask…AND I have to renew my driver’s license…it sure would be nice to be able to keep my tax refunds rather than turning the money over to the MVA for reasons that are not yet completely clear to me…if I was a prayin’ man, I would consider praying for that–some financial security…my Birthday wish–which prolly ain’t gonna happen, is for a car…I actually have been blessed in the past to have cars practically given to me (twice I think) so I suspect it would be greedy to even fantasize about it happening again…but I do…
UPDATE–So I went up against “city hall” today…I didn’t lose, but I didn’t win either…I gotta make monthly payments (AND a $200 down payment) ’til the $800 is paid…I think of it as a compromise…and hopefully a BIG lesson learned about procrastination...
when I was younger I GOT money for my birthday, this year I give somebody else (the MVA) money…I must be getting senile, I’m actually almost sorta kinda in a way happy…