well I said I didn’t…
…pray, but that’s before I got a job interview at a retail store I can walk to…IF I get the job I WILL have to walk TO work, but I would take the bus home…after all, Winter is around the corner…but considering what I could bring home (even after taxes) it’s worth it…but no, I don’t think I’m gonna pray for the job, THAT would be hypocritical and I try not to be a hypocrite…but sometimes I am anyway…the job is an overnight stocking job; I never thought I’d take one of those but my sleep schedule is so screwy already, I think I can adjust to it…the hours are from 5AM to 10:30AM…I think it’s only about 5 hours a day and while I dunno fer sure, I think it’s five days a week (no Sundays?) and the transportation costs would be significantly reduced...maybe it will be a mild Winter, but forecasters have been saying the opposite…I don’t care, I STILL want that job…
LATER–all my life I’ve left job interviews with no strong impression either way as to whether or not I got the job…this time I actually almost kinda sorta in a way feel like I might have gotten the job…the surprise (not so good news) is that the position (whatever it may turn out to be) is SEASONAL…and I assumed (based on my conversation w/the manager last week) that I would be a permanent overnight stocker…that is not carved in stone apparently…and that’s OK too…being a cashier ain’t so bad…whatever’s gonna happen, I could know something by Wednesday…no one can guarantee that I would still be there after the holidays, but honestly, I can’t imagine NOT being there after the holidays…I’m not THAT much of a fuck-up…still it would kinda suck if I quit my current job and don’t “cut the mustard” at a certain nationwide arts and crafts store…THAT is makin’ me a tad nervous…but for now I’m gonna focus on my first actual gig with Lou…of course it’s a non-paying gig, but it’s still a gig…it’s not an open mic, or “jam” or “showcase”…I suspect he is quite stressed, but who knows? I’m OK–I think…