I think I’m ready to go…
IF I could find the right place and IF I knew for sure I wouldn’t fuck it up I THINK that MAYBE I’d “close the book” on my Life’s story…as I’ve said LOTSA times before, that my Life is pathetic is mostly my fault…and that just makes it worse…
I reluctantly spoke to SLR about yesterday’s gig…most of the things that bothered her had little to do with me…the kids playing at the edge of the stage interfered with our attempt at shooting a video…the “less than skinny” woman breast feeding her baby distracted everyone but ME–I absolutely DID NOT see that…
and if I didn’t mention it, tonight’s gig got canceled…other than whatever money we woulda made, nobody wanted to play…so be it…
ADDENDUM–people have been raving about SLR’s performance at Karmafest yesterday, which kinda verifies my suspicions about MY performance…no one has even acknowledged me yet…I must have SUPER sucked…such is Life…
SCOOTER, YOU ARE IN A BAD SPOT BUT THINGS WILL NOT ALWAYS BE BAD…KEEP FAITH IN YOURSELF AND KNOW IN YOUR HEART THAT YOU ARE WORTH MORE THAN YOU GIVE YOURSELF CREDIT FOR. IF YOU NEED A FRIEND TO TALK TO, I AM HERE..