a yin/yang kinda day…
and I’m not sure which one is “good” and which one’s “bad”–but I’ve had a bunch of both today…after all the financial anguish I managed to get my paycheck cashed…I DO kinda resent that the Bank where the funds come from punishes me for not being a customer of theirs by charging me $7 to cash the dammed thing…
I dunno why but the subway sat immobile just long enough for me to miss my bus…I f**king HATE watching it leave w/o me–but it did….
I have enough money to pay the cell phone bill (and then some)…and (as of now) I’m supposed to house/pet sit for my ex sister-in-law–for a full week…Life is OK…
youTube is acting screwy tonight, can’t listen to anything…THAT sucks IMO…
like I said it’s been a yin/yang kinda day…
ADDENDUM–it turns out “yin/yang” is kind of a “darkness/light” concept…symbolically speaking of course…so perhaps “good” and “bad” are the wrong words to use, maybe…
feeling abandoned by almost everybody, even Lou…although Rick called to see how I was doing and to invite me to come and see his band play nearby–and maybe sit in as well…I think Ron would rather I NOT sing and play with him, he (and I) thought by enhancing his performance (with a lead guitarist/harmony singer) he would make more money; but this doesn’t seem to be the case–because he has to split what WE bring in, HE makes LESS…So in a way, the public has spoken–it’s ME they aren’t crazy about…that sucks…
so I guess my Musical Life is over…that IS a bummer…perhaps *I* am delusional but I DO think that if someone else “twiddled the knobs” and financed the project *I* could do an album…but referring to song a “friend” wrote, I AM gonna die with my Music still inside…