what’s the f**kin’ problem?
yet another so-called friend has apparently formed a duo with someone who is not me…I’m not grotesque looking, so I must be a major asshole or something…that’s ok, the retirement from Music will begin on 1/1/14…I’m debating whether or not there should/will be an announcement on the other FB…If anyone actually ASKS me to participate in a Musical endeavor I MIGHT say yes…but open mics or jams? no…and no more pushy-ness and/or begging for a chance to play…If Ron ASKS me to go busking with him, I’ll likely say “yes” but otherwise I won’t beg HIM either…
like it has been with Music, I guess I have to be in the mood to “doodle”…I’ll do it when I wanna, and I won’t when I don’t…what I used to do with the “doodles” was (mostly) if I started one I’d keep at it until it was finished…I’m currently working on one–slowly…trying not to be in such a hurry…
it’s probably gonna be tough giving up one Art form to pursue another…and of course, giving up something not because ya want to but because no one seems to wanna do it with you is NOT the reason for giving up anything…obviously, my heart is still in Music, THAT’S gonna be hard to change…on the other hand “doodling” is very much solo thing–I like that…and I’ve never had the desire or courage to be a solo Musician…if I had developed that ability, I wouldn’t have to give Music…