woman’s intuition
I feel like I’m I’m slowly but surely sinking into oblivion…and I hardly care…my “roomie” on the other hand, has noticed and she has suggested I go play some Music somewhere…I don’t really wanna but I think I’m going to the Legion Friday evening…if for no other reason, I can pay Bill that $20 bucks I owe him…I will take my electric guitar and amp, but I might leave the stuff in the car…
I’ve been off of Facebook for about three weeks, and I’ve only heard from two people…One is a Facebook “friend”, the other is an actual friend from my adolescent years that I recently reconnected with…
I feel as though my time with SLR is nearing its’ end…Like I said awhile back, I think I’m done playing Music…The roomie has noticed the effect that decision is having on me and has made a suggestion (go to the Legion) but that might only reinforce the feeling that I should be doing something other than whatever you wanna call what SLR and I do…which isn’t really rock and roll…thinking about how to end this relationship is killing me…I wonder what actually ending it will do to her…I imagine she may already suspect something, that wouldn’t surprise me…Most gigs we do are (for both of us) quite stressful…”Polished” we are not…I may be more to blame for that, but not by much–she allegedly gets major stage fright…And if I’m putting out a “I don’t really wanna be here” vibe, she WILL pick up on that…(sigh)