a new mantra? (or) who does an Atheist thank?
I am trying to be grateful for what I have even if it’s not quite what I want…In some cases this mostly means having something from the Dollar Menu instead of the steak I’d rather have…and I’m OK with this…But I wonder–if not “God” then who/what do I thank? I kinda believe there’s some kind of force “running” the Universe, just don’t ask me to explain/describe it…I would imagine the Universal Force doesn’t ask for money, or damn me to Hell for being gay; and I doubt that the Universal Force hates anyone because of the color of their skin…
lotsa changes in my Life now, if only temporarily…I’m gonna try to NOT take a nap today…my new phone is loaded with some of the kind of stuff I always envied other people for having…and yet (today at least) it’s acting a teeny tiny bit weird–it’s a technical thing, don’t ask me to explain, just trust me…but I’m grateful that the phone works at all…I really feel like a part of 21st century society now…
ADDENDUM–it’s just past Noon and I just finished Lunch…that’s unusual…I DID try to take a little nap, but I couldn’t fall asleep…Tonight after work, I plan to go to Safeway and talk to the guy who does the hiring about getting a job there…unless my Boss (who’s no longer there) put DO NOT REHIRE in my personnel file…If I was a praying kinda guy, I’d pray that I could go back to Safeway…
LATER–Ryan told me that first he had to send an e-mail to Human Resources, which they prolly won’t even see until Monday…He said “give it ’til Wednesday” before I check back with him…