prove it
had a fight w/my Boss yesterday, a loud one…on Tuesday he added to my “to do” list but isn’t giving me more time to do the stuff…HE sez he only gave me part of the to do List when I started–*I* say that’s bullshit…he also said my co-worker used to do the entire List herself…I say prove it…I didn’t (yet) accuse him of lying to me, but I’m convinced he is…and now I’m convinced that one of his friends, or a friend of a friend, is waiting to replace me…I’m SO reluctant to bring Race into this discussion, there ARE lazy White people on the Planet…my Father thought *I* was, but I didn’t think so then and I don’t think so now…Most if not all Racial clichés have some Truth attached to them, but I think it’s a HUMAN trait to want to make a job easy on oneself…just like it’s a HUMAN trait for some people in a position of power to go overboard with that power…So again, it’s possible that my Boss would treat me the same if *I* was Black; forgive me if you can, but I don’t think he would, *I* think I’d have an easier time, he wouldn’t be nearly as strict if I was black…in any case, I have to find something else, period–end of sentence…
and like I said, when ya got money ya got lotsa friends…when you’re broke you’re all alone…
My Musical career, which has been nearly non-existant lately anyway is over as far as I’m concerned…One of my so-called friends once told me no one wanted to be in a band with me (how nice to hear that) and another one said my standards are too high–and that’s a bad thing? The band I saw last week was less than mediocre…but they got paid…IMO most of my friends’ bands are “so-so” at best…Just about the best band I’ve heard in the past few months were strangers; I was not bowled over by the Music they played but I can’t deny their “chops”…It may be true that the average listener doesn’t know from “chops” so in that case being a Musician listening to other Musicians is different than being a “civilian” listening to Musicians…
What a pathetic way to finish something…One doesn’t absolutely need a car to hold down a job, *I* know that…but I believe it’s a necessity for a working Musician…so my retirement is not completely my idea…
ADDENDUM–the eBay store gave me $17 for a handful of CDs…I feel rich…I bought some groceries; which leaves me with $10, which I hope will get me to work next Tuesday…I think I already have enough to get to work on Sunday…I get paid on Thursday and can, if I have to, make arrangements to get the paycheck Wednesday evening…
my Musical abilities are not in demand, but my Musical equipment seems to be–4 different people seem to want the amp I’m selling…why a drummer’s wife wants a guitar amp is a mystery to me…*I* think she’s up to something…” Don’t thank me, thank Jesus…” I recommend she not hold her breath…thankfully, there seem to be other offers…