Reasons
went to two different open mics last night, had roughly the same amount of fun at each one…but I found myself thinking afterward about all the compliments I get regarding my Musical ability–and I get a bunch…what do those people say when I’m out of earshot…I probably shouldn’t care, but I do…Was talking to B. about H., how he’s fairly talented, but a bit loony…ANY adjective is just an opinion I guess–one person’s “loony” is another person’s “normal” right? But (for now) I wonder what (if anything) people say behind MY back…People do lie to each other (that includes me–because I don’t wanna hurt anyone’s feelings)
for instance, one of my favorite bands is playing nearby soon, I think I will wait until they invite me to see them otherwise I might just stay home…if they honestly want me there they’ll invite me, right? Because lately I have felt like I was being merely tolerated…
and with that going on in my head I have a MAJOR Project staring me in the face…I need to make my “bedroom” a MUCH more hospitable environment because my one Official partner and I are rehearsing there tomorrow for our gig on the 14th of February, which is a week and a half away…she may be bringing a percussionist with her…I don’t wanna freak them out with the “lack of organization” that permeates the room now…mostly I will be hiding stuff, but I can’t hide everything…and whenever I DO straighten up a space, I lose stuff…there’s some “food stamp” paperwork I very much need to find, THAT’S reason enuff to clean up down there…
after months of playing Music with him I think I might have figured out the one thing that bothers me about playing with Lou–the tempos seem a tad fast…*I* think it’s just nerves on his part, but I dunno for sure…we killed last week at the Legion, but not so much last night at Hershey’s (both my opinions of course)… I think Barry Stoney Randy and I did well–that’s what MY ears told me…and again what people think matters to me…we don’t/didn’t rehearse our set, we’re not a band…I’m not at all sure the “civilians” are aware of that…Lou and I don’t rehearse either, sometimes I think it wouldn’t hurt if we did…