it’s somebody else’s turn
I feel like *I* do all the relating in my relationships…*I* leave most of the phone calls and text messages and Facebook messages…well, not today (at least if I can help it)…and maybe not tomorrow or the next day…I know I’m “quirky”–but so are 99.99 % of my so-called friends…for instance, some of my female friends don’t ACT married; I dunno why one in particular even bothers with clothes…quite annoying, always making the grand entrance…and the guy who never refers to his wife by name, it’s almost always “my Wife” in a tone of what sounds to ME like resignation…and there’s the girl singer who apparently WILL sing with anybody, even people she isn’t all that fond of…I’m SO thankful that MY Ego isn’t quite that needy…well, let’s see what happens tonight…Michelle and I are supposed to get together, but I’m not gonna be the driving force this time…We’re supposed to go see a friend who’s playing at the place where we’ll be playing Friday night, hoping to maybe drum up so business for ourselves…If SHE doesn’t call ME, it ain’t gonna happen…besides I’m STILL not quite over this thing that I’ve been wrestling with for what seems like three weeks now…I wish I had the courage to put this on FB, but then I would REALLY be friendless; as opposed to feeling friendless…I just wish there was something good on TV tonight…
ADDENDUM–I canceled the rehearsal…worried about my voice, and now suddenly I have a stomach ache–perfect…there IS some good news; I actually have $11 in my pocket…it’s going into the roomie’s vehicle’s gas tank…but at least I have it in the first place…still, feeling like this (physically and emotionally) and knowing I’ve made plans to get up at 5AM, I might be in bed before 10PM…