{"id":16081,"date":"2011-02-14T00:34:32","date_gmt":"2011-02-14T05:34:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/16081\/random-solitude\/"},"modified":"2011-02-14T00:34:32","modified_gmt":"2011-02-14T05:34:32","slug":"random-solitude","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/16081\/random-solitude\/","title":{"rendered":"Random Solitude"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: left\"><span style=\"font-family: verdana,geneva\"><span style=\"font-size: medium\">It had been about 3 months since I made one of these \u201crandom\u201d videos.\u00a0 It\u2019s a fun way to do something creative without having to think too much about it.\u00a0\u00a0 I watched 7 hours or so of NBA basketball today, so that influenced my decision of the music to use for the background.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><object><\/object><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">\n<p style=\"text-align: left\"><span style=\"font-family: verdana,geneva\"><span style=\"font-size: medium\">I make these \u201crandom\u201d vids by using dice to randomly pick clips from the contents of my current \u201cMy Videos\u201d folder, which I clean up 2 or 3 times per year for space saving.\u00a0 Consequently, these random vids make for nice snapshots of my recent past (including lots of clips from my Christmas down in San Diego, which I still haven\u2019t shared with anyone). <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\"><span style=\"font-size: x-small\"><span style=\"font-family: verdana,geneva\"> <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\"><span style=\"font-size: x-small\">*sigh*<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\"><span style=\"font-family: verdana,geneva\"><span style=\"font-size: medium\"> <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: verdana,geneva\"><span style=\"font-size: medium\">I\u2019ve been in a little bit of a funk this last week or two.\u00a0 One thing about recovering from alcoholism is that certain friends really <em>can\u2019t be<\/em> part of one\u2019s life anymore.\u00a0 I\u2019m talking about friends who remain heavily involved in chemical use\u2026 which was pretty much <strong>all <\/strong>of my old friends.\u00a0 I haven\u2019t really replaced that group with new friends, and so I tend to spend a lot of time alone.\u00a0 I\u2019ve found that being a loner is not like many other situations where one just sort of gets used to it over time; the longer this basic social need goes unfulfilled, the harder it gets.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: verdana,geneva\"><span style=\"font-size: medium\">That\u2019s been my reality for some time now, and however pathetic it may sound to whine about not having any friends, there is a certain amount catharsis that comes from that admission.\u00a0 I don\u2019t dwell on it too much, but admitting it helps me face the reality of my situation and can spark changing it.\u00a0 This too shall pass, I tell myself, but the reality is that I need to do more to make it pass.\u00a0 Have a plan.\u00a0 Follow through.\u00a0 Evaluate my efforts.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: verdana,geneva\"><span style=\"font-size: medium\">That, or sign up for NBA League Pass so I can spend all my non-school hours watching basketball.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It had been about 3 months since I made one of these \u201crandom\u201d videos.\u00a0 It\u2019s a fun way to do something creative without having to think too much about it.\u00a0\u00a0 I watched 7 hours or so of NBA basketball today, so that influenced my decision of the music to use for the background. 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