{"id":16532,"date":"2011-02-16T15:14:52","date_gmt":"2011-02-16T20:14:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/16532\/pretty-sure-insecure\/"},"modified":"2011-02-16T15:14:52","modified_gmt":"2011-02-16T20:14:52","slug":"pretty-sure-insecure","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/16532\/pretty-sure-insecure\/","title":{"rendered":"I’m pretty sure, I’m insecure…"},"content":{"rendered":"

Not going to play the Blues in Bowie tonight…I might be a folkie singer\/songwriter instead…I said (on the OTHER Fb) that I was stepping slightly outta my safety zone, but (IF I get to perform) it’s quite a ways away from the safety zone…and I have mixed feelings about doing it…like I’ve said before the “solo acoustic” thing scares the crap outta me, and that’s when I’m playing songs I KNOW…playing MY songs (which I don’t know that well) is even more terrifying than that…but facing yer fears is said to be good for us…though I don’t know how the “trots” or puking can be good for anybody…I made the commitment and I’m a-gonna stick to it…and if all I do is spectate, that’s fine by me…there will be a major addendum later of course…<\/span><\/p>\n

as promised, here’s the ADDENDUM–I did not play any songs of mine (surprise) but I spent lotsa time onstage playing and\/or singing harmony behind various people…some of these people I just don’t like much (am I not allowed?) but I don’t wanna hurt their feelings by saying “no”–that makes sense don’t it? It causes me no physical pain to play alongside them, I think the most I get is annoyed…I’m pretty sure they appreciate my ability, but it is entirely possible that they don’t LIKE me either…I think I’m OK with that actually…it was nice to see a certain female friend, but don’t worry, she’s married…and even if she wasn’t I believe there are MAJOR compatibility issues…while I can imagine us singing to each other,\u00a0 or expressing our feelings for each other in a physically intimate way (that which most of you call sex, or fucking)\u00a0 we do NOT share the same beliefs regarding Religion…like I said compatibility, or the lack thereof…on the way home I got busted for the brake lights I seemingly don’t have and the one headlight I don’t have…so much for the money in the Bank that I had hoped to leave alone…such is Life…it ain’t great, but it doesn’t suck either…yet…
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Not going to play the Blues in Bowie tonight…I might be a folkie singer\/songwriter instead…I said (on the OTHER Fb) that I was stepping slightly outta my safety zone, but (IF I get to perform) it’s quite a ways away from the safety zone…and I have mixed feelings about doing it…like I’ve said before the […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16532","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-music"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16532","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=16532"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16532\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=16532"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=16532"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=16532"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}