{"id":69547,"date":"2011-11-02T00:09:15","date_gmt":"2011-11-02T04:09:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/69547\/transformative-times-voice-head\/"},"modified":"2011-11-02T00:09:15","modified_gmt":"2011-11-02T04:09:15","slug":"transformative-times-voice-head","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/69547\/transformative-times-voice-head\/","title":{"rendered":"Transformative Times & The Voice Inside My Head"},"content":{"rendered":"

I woke up this morning with some pretty intense insights.\u00a0 I don\u2019t mind sharing these somewhat extreme experiences on my blog on FriendBurst even though they may make me sound a bit crazy.\u00a0 See, none of my RL friends read my FB blog (except for my mom, and then only occasionally), and although I hold my dozen or two readers here in very high regard, if you think I\u2019m losing my mind, well, that\u2019s not really going to impact me outside of this small realm.\u00a0 So be it.<\/font><\/p>\n

See, I\u2019m going through some pretty intense transformative times right now.\u00a0 Did anyone else wake up this morning and feel like everything had totally changed?\u00a0 That was just me?\u00a0 Okay, fine.\u00a0 Given what I\u2019ve been going through lately, I\u2019m okay with that.\u00a0 We all have our times.\u00a0 This is mine.<\/p>\n

Perhaps the most notably weird experience happened two nights ago.\u00a0 I was in that semi-conscious borderland between awake and asleep, just before dozing off.\u00a0 It\u2019s a territory wherein I\u2019ve experienced some pretty intense God moments in previous times in my life, but none quite so audible as Sunday night.\u00a0 Just before dozing off, I awakened myself with a chant.\u00a0 Completely outside my conscious doing, fairly loudly, I began to sing\/chant words that I did not understand.\u00a0 They were some kind of language, that much I understood, even though I didn\u2019t understand the words and it wasn\u2019t actually ME making those noises.\u00a0 The tonality of the music sounded vaguely Native American.\u00a0 It also felt really good giving myself over to whatever it was that expressing these sounds through my body and they were, by far, the most beautiful sounding notes to come out of my lungs in my lifetime of trying to sing.<\/p>\n

After this gripping unconscious singing-in-tongues event released some control to me, I continued to sing nonsense words and it sounded okay.\u00a0 By the third stanza, it was just me trying to mimic Indian chanting and it just sounded lame.\u00a0 I don\u2019t know what took over me in those few moments, but it was intense, frightening and wonderful.<\/p>\n

This morning I woke up after yet another\u00a0 weird and profound night traveling in the ethers.\u00a0 One of my insights was about how I spend too much focus transmitting my thoughts, hoping others will listen to me instead of me listening to myself\u2026\u00a0 I won\u2019t dwell on blogging about how I blog too much, suffice to say that it was one of several things that made this day, Novmeber 1st, remarkable\u2026<\/p>\n

Instead of starting a book, I thought I\u2019d sing a song.\u00a0 My first original song since \u201cVotin for Obama Again\u201d\u2026<\/p>\n

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Tentatively entitled \u201cThe Voice Inside My Head\u201d\u2026 <\/font><\/p>\n

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Here\u2019s the chords & lyrics.<\/p>\n

F\u00a0\u00a0 Gm\u00a0 F\u00a0\u00a0 Bb\u00a0 F\u00a0 (x2)
\nC\u00a0\u00a0 Edim\u00a0 Dm\u00a0\u00a0 Am\u00a0 F\u00a0 Am\u00a0 F<\/p>\n

I think I\u2019m losing control
\nI\u2019ve put too much faith in what I think I know
\nAnd when I act the clown
\nEventually, it all comes crashing down
\nNo matter what I do,
\nI can\u2019t escape the voice inside my head, my head.<\/p>\n

And at the end of the day
\nAll of my personal facades, they fade away
\nSomething comes over me
\nSome hidden insight that will set me free
\nMy egocentric self withers at the lack of choice
\nTo hear the voice
\nInside my head.. My head\u2026<\/p>\n

These are truly times of change
\nI hope you feel what I feel
\nIts not something I can explain
\nEvery day I reset my program
\nComfortably adrift in who I think I am
\nAnd I lose myself in this amorphous
\nWondrous
\nEndless
\nTransformative
\nBoundless
\nContinuous
\nTimeless
\nFabulous
\nTime of change.<\/p>\n

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I woke up this morning with some pretty intense insights.\u00a0 I don\u2019t mind sharing these somewhat extreme experiences on my blog on FriendBurst even though they may make me sound a bit crazy.\u00a0 See, none of my RL friends read my FB blog (except for my mom, and then only occasionally), and although I hold […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-69547","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-other"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69547","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=69547"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69547\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=69547"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=69547"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=69547"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}