{"id":96879,"date":"2012-09-24T00:35:48","date_gmt":"2012-09-24T04:35:48","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/96879\/unsettling\/"},"modified":"2012-09-24T00:35:48","modified_gmt":"2012-09-24T04:35:48","slug":"unsettling","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/friendburst.com\/blog-new\/96879\/unsettling\/","title":{"rendered":"UNSETTLING WITHIN . . . ."},"content":{"rendered":"<div>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\"><em><font face=\"Times\" size=\"5\"><img decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter\" src=\"http:\/\/i148.photobucket.com\/albums\/s4\/barbkaus\/Waimea%20Valley%20Botanical%20Gardens\/Beginning%20May%2010\/Beginning%201-1-11\/Beginning%209-14-12\/CPCASimpleSundayOPENEYESDREAMINGbyGyurka_zps0a37408a.jpg\" alt=\"\" \/><\/font><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><font face=\"Times\" size=\"5\"><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">&#8220;Open Eyes Dreaming&#8221; by Gyurka<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center\"><strong>UNSETTLING WITHIN<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">Within that unsettling silence<br \/>\nthat finds me unaware<br \/>\nand unprepared<br \/>\nas it descends<br \/>\nand closes in<br \/>\nupon my heart<br \/>\nin the middle of the night,<br \/>\neyes wide open<br \/>\nand no rest in sight,<br \/>\ntrying to ward off<br \/>\nthose uninvited thoughts<br \/>\ntossed aside so long ago,<br \/>\nmost largely forgotten<br \/>\nand tucked safely away,<br \/>\nbut creeping back<br \/>\nand seeping through the cracks,<br \/>\nas walls and defenses,<br \/>\nonce constructed<br \/>\nand assumed to be strong,<br \/>\nbegin to crumble again<br \/>\nand threaten<br \/>\nto<br \/>\ntumble<br \/>\ndown.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">And as they do<br \/>\nbegin to fall and sway,<br \/>\nin the darkness that comes<br \/>\nas night replaces the day,<br \/>\nthat young girl who sat<br \/>\nin the very last row<br \/>\nas she tried to find a voice<br \/>\nto express what she felt<br \/>\nand what she saw,<br \/>\nemerges through the darkness<br \/>\nlong thought gone away,<br \/>\nstill feeling quite insignificant<br \/>\nand small,<br \/>\nstill searching for those words<br \/>\ntrapped deep within<br \/>\nand still so very often<br \/>\nstruggling for release.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">And within that silence,<br \/>\nso many years removed<br \/>\nfrom those nagging thoughts<br \/>\nand silent tears that fell,<br \/>\nthe insecurities and the doubt<br \/>\ncome back to haunt the night,<br \/>\nthe feelings of that young girl<br \/>\nwho sat upon the fringe of life,<br \/>\nlooking but not quite fitting in,<br \/>\nstill struggling to keep<br \/>\nthat voice since then found,<br \/>\nfrom retreating back<br \/>\ninto that silent place,<br \/>\ndark and alone<br \/>\nand within.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">(c) barbara kausteklis 9-23-12<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">Written for CPC &#8220;Simple Sunday Dreams<br \/>\nWith Both Eyes and Imagination Open Wide,&#8221;<br \/>\ntoday featuring Gyurka&#8217;s &#8220;Open Eyes Dreaming.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center\"><a rel=\"nofollow\" href=\"http:\/\/www.msplinks.com\/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LmZyaWVuZGJ1cnN0LmNvbS9ibG9nLzk2NjkzL3NpbXBsZS1zdW5kYXktZHJlYW1zLWV5ZXMtaW1hZ2luYXRpb24tb3Blbi13aWRlLw==\" target=\"_blank\">http:\/\/www.friendburst.com\/blog\/96693\/simple-sunday-dreams-eyes-imagination-open-wide\/<\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center\"><strong>Thanks always for your visits and comments<br \/>\nand for encouraging that voice of mine<br \/>\nwhich has taken so long to find<br \/>\nand which still often struggles<br \/>\nwith those same feelings<br \/>\nthat haunted that young girl<br \/>\nso long ago.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">Big Hugs.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">~barb~<\/p>\n<p><\/strong><\/font><\/em><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;Open Eyes Dreaming&#8221; 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