I’m pretty sure, I’m insecure…
Not going to play the Blues in Bowie tonight…I might be a folkie singer/songwriter instead…I said (on the OTHER Fb) that I was stepping slightly outta my safety zone, but (IF I get to perform) it’s quite a ways away from the safety zone…and I have mixed feelings about doing it…like I’ve said before the “solo acoustic” thing scares the crap outta me, and that’s when I’m playing songs I KNOW…playing MY songs (which I don’t know that well) is even more terrifying than that…but facing yer fears is said to be good for us…though I don’t know how the “trots” or puking can be good for anybody…I made the commitment and I’m a-gonna stick to it…and if all I do is spectate, that’s fine by me…there will be a major addendum later of course…
as promised, here’s the ADDENDUM–I did not play any songs of mine (surprise) but I spent lotsa time onstage playing and/or singing harmony behind various people…some of these people I just don’t like much (am I not allowed?) but I don’t wanna hurt their feelings by saying “no”–that makes sense don’t it? It causes me no physical pain to play alongside them, I think the most I get is annoyed…I’m pretty sure they appreciate my ability, but it is entirely possible that they don’t LIKE me either…I think I’m OK with that actually…it was nice to see a certain female friend, but don’t worry, she’s married…and even if she wasn’t I believe there are MAJOR compatibility issues…while I can imagine us singing to each other, or expressing our feelings for each other in a physically intimate way (that which most of you call sex, or fucking) we do NOT share the same beliefs regarding Religion…like I said compatibility, or the lack thereof…on the way home I got busted for the brake lights I seemingly don’t have and the one headlight I don’t have…so much for the money in the Bank that I had hoped to leave alone…such is Life…it ain’t great, but it doesn’t suck either…yet…
Do you suffer from stage fright? Maybe you should letting the nise from the crowd drive you on. I played a bit of sport in my time and always got a lift from the crowd even though I am a shy person by nature. Just relx and let it flow Scoots
“Yellow moon on the rise..”