My Hiding Place ~ Friend to Friend
When you grow up in the kinda house hold I grew up in a “Hiding Place” is necessary!! My Mother is Bi-Polar and well she did not get diagnosed until I was grown and gone. Believe it or not I was rather introverted when I was young and for the most part a home body. So I was the one who got the brunt of Mothers anger when she was out of control ~ Think “Mommy Dearest” and you’ll know what I mean. So my hiding place was away from the house, under a big old tree several blocks up the street. I’d put my dog Fee Fee in the handlebar basket and ride my bike there and just sit and ponder the meaning of life.
Lady Cheryl
Some days are better then others. Today is one of “Those” days. My mind keeps wondering to my past. Some times its good and other times its not. Today “it is ” not. Pictures can be full of so many happy memories. Today I am having a hard time looking at them. I have lost too many loved ones in my life. I question all the time about where does a love on go when they leave. Are there Angels? Is there a God? How did a life start? How long ago did we exist as humans? How come we live, laugh, and love to only be taken away and leaving our loved ones with so much heartache? Why is there so much hate in this world? Is there a “Heaven” and “Hell”? These things I ponder. From my personal observation I have learned not to take life for granted. Too many times I have and then have life slap me so hard my head just about snapped off my shoulders! I honestly can say, I lost my mind when my dear beautiful daughter, Jessika was taken from me. The pain of losing a child is the worst of worsts to handle! I do not have any mercy for anyone who drives under the influence of any drug, or alcohol beverage! I lost a brother from a drunk driver and then my daughter! I do not have any mercy for anyone who treats a human being like trash nor anyone who treats their animals like trash! My other brother was shot dead by his girlfriend who in return shot herself! I have from experience learned that LOVE is a powerful word..but its also the hardest to show. Hate is easier to show. I know from my experience I have learned to forgive the ones who have shredded my heart and soul. If I didn’t, the hate I had, would of killed me! Time keeps ticking, even if you don’t. So now I say goodnight to my day, and when I wake I say “Thank You” for a new day! Remember to always say I Love You to those who are in your heart, because tomorrow may not come.
Being yellow blended in too well could not read So, I copied & it worked for all to read that have trouble like me Pray you did not mind.. :love: :love:
When you grow up in the kinda house hold I grew up in a “Hiding Place” is necessary!! My Mother is Bi-Polar and well she did not get diagnosed until I was grown and gone. Believe it or not I was rather introverted when I was young and for the most part a home body. So I was the one who got the brunt of Mothers anger when she was out of control ~ Think “Mommy Dearest” and you’ll know what I mean. So my hiding place was away from the house, under a big old tree several blocks up the street. I’d put my dog Fee Fee in the handlebar basket and ride my bike there and just sit and ponder the meaning of life.
Lady Cheryl
Bless your heart..Strength I know you gained For today all you do & share with us…So, much inspiration, strength we receive..Love the trees True Blessings, always 🙂 :love: :love:
Awww… so sorry to hear…i grew up in a big family….7 brothers and 1 sister…she was the baby…i always felt so protected and loved! I wish everyone could grow up feeling this way! :love: :love: :love:
ITS GOOD YOU HAD A PLACE TO GO,,,IT GAVE YOU PEACE OF MIND FOR A LITTLE WHILE,, SOME NEVER FIND THAT PLACE INKY DEEP WRITE,,
What an array of beauty and sadness combined in a single write. My heart hurts to hear some of what you say, but at the same time, amazed at your heart and your outlook on life, itself. And those questions you ask yourself, even if you do not come to a complete understanding or acceptance of them, they serve as a method that you seem to use to develop this way you look at it all. Thank you for sharing this with us… :love: :love: :love:
For many, this day brings about a release of emotion, emotion so ready to move. Those of us who are at a physical distance “feel” what our human family is feeling. In silence we find our Self. In solitude we find our way. In solace we find courage, and in Love do we find our true Home…
I am so very sorry that you have experienced such hurt and pain Lady CD. But this you should know..
You Are Loved and Lovable and never allow anyone to convince you otherwise. :love:
I had the same kind of mum but she had a heart attack and it changed her whole world ( and mine) and now she loves me, never says an unkind word anymore and we are at peace with each other cos I just love her so much…she now has a child like innocence about her, lost all the anger …she is one of the sweetest people I know…I feel blessed…
I hide in my little back garden entering the plant world has a calming energy I love…Yes, I hug trees and tell them they are beautiful and I love them, they in turn love me back :love:
LilC I can see you do this… I believe this is why you write so well.. your heart is there!
You did the best thing for you… You even knew then…. how to parent your-self.. better than
the parents… your love shines to others.. There is one thing about you I know..
You may go heal..(a hiding place) but you come back with loving arms…. and stronger!
Friend to friend till the end sweet LilC! :love: :love: :love: :love: (So happy you are my Friend)
Love You :love: :love: :love: :love: :love: :love: :love: :love: