FriendBurst Blog

my roommate must be the bestest in the world…thanx to her perseverance I got TWO pairs of shoes for $20–at a consignment store…AND permission to use her vehicle to get to Balmer Monday for a funeral…my reason for attending has more to do with possibly catching up with certain people, and I’m slightly ashamed of that…on the other hand, the Woman who’s funeral it is would (theoretically) be happy that her oldest son and I were reunited…I have no idea how this reunion will go…It’s possible that her son won’t (or won’t WANT TO) remember me…I think he WILL remember me, but I am not as sure that he’ll WANT to, it’s been about 40 years since we last saw each other, save for one brief encounter in the mid(?) 80s…I strongly suspect we’re WAY more incompatible now than we were back then…He helped me become who I am, but our lives now are SO different…from what little I know, I’m not sure we’ll have much to talk about…So I will prepare for that, and hope for the best…and I will try my best to be mellow and calm and sedate–it is a funeral after all…

almost ALMOST got a new (smart) phone, but didn’t…but I SO want to…soon I hope…we’ll see…a smart phone would allegedly add only $10 to my Monthly phone bill until it was paid for…I just don’t have the $50 down payment yet…

ADDENDUM–a lot can happen in a day or so…the roommate may have rescinded her offer re: using her car to go to Balmer…I hope I’m wrong…perhaps it’s because the secondary reason for my going is just as important as the primary reason…I don’t like going to funerals, not many people do, right? I think we go to support the family…Frankly, if I knew now that Marjorie’s oldest son wasn’t gonna be there, I wouldn’t go…and THAT’S rather shameful…Marjorie meant a lot to me, but she won’t know I was there…I think my Dad used go to funerals for the same reason–to play “catch up”, and for me that’s what this is about…If I’m supposed to go, I will be allowed to go; that’s how I see it…