FriendBurst Blog

I know I’m not the most generous human being (financially) but when I DO have it, I share it–a little…And I know I’m not the most upbeat positive person, but when I DO feel good, I try to spread THAT around too…NONE of my so-called friends have even bothered to check to see how I’m doing…Apparently all those happy people (which can be overdone occasionally) are secretly struggling with their own stuff and all that happiness and positivity is an act…maybe they too are waiting for my tax refunds, THEN they’ll be on me like flies on a sugar cake…and yet a stranger loaned me $10…he is a student at the college where I work, so we see each other twice a week–he’s not a total stranger…see, Humans are an absolute total mystery…

there’s something people post on the other FB that kinda goes like this: “Let’s see who my real friends are…in JUST one word, say how we met then repost so I can do that for you, it’s no fun if ya don’t re-post…” Well if you need a test to prove my friendship, then maybe we’re not friends after all…I wish I had the guts to actually put that on Facebook, but I don’t–yet…On the other hand perhaps I’ve unknowingly tested my friends beyond their limits, who fuckin’ knows…that may be likely…

I’ve got a paying gig Friday night; I could hardly care less…and as far as I know, I have a non-paying gig tonight, at the OTWC open mic…I think the host said he’d buy me dinner–that works for me…it’s sad and pathetic, but my ability to be genuinely happy seems to be directly connected to how much money I have…